The Life of the Giggling Kitten

Doctor appointments!!! some times can be great!

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 22:13:24 GMT

Ok had my doctor appointment this morning...

Everything so far looks ok. Nothing weird and now i'm on birth control! haven't been on that stuff since Feb of 2003.... WOW!

But the best part... I have been semi battling with scares of breast cancer for a few years now. Had biopsies done but nothing bad so far...Had 3 lumps that wouldn't go away.. and i know def. 1 was slightly growing.... but today had them looked at.. and they are gone! completely! Docs are still trying to figure out how... but gone... so that is AWESOME!

So today is a good day^.^

Race cars and family reunions!

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 03:50:23 GMT

My buddy mike knows what helps me unwind! and that is the sound of roaring engines, the smell of Cam2 and watching that tree count down and the cars taking off!
I love drag racing i think that is a part of racing that will be in my life forever!

And working on the cars is just awesome! Mikes ranchero lost 2 tranny bolts and he couldn't get them back on between the 2 divisions that he was racing so (yes!!) I had to go into his tool box and find my gloves YAYA! my gloves. and get all dirty! Got trans fluid on my white shirt and burned my middle finger, didn't even feel it the freaking engine was so hot! and with the gloves on. Still don't have feeling from the tip down, but i have to go to the docs in the AM so i will get it looked at then.
But i got the bolts back on (awesome being a chick with small hands!) But he red lined the next race! it sucked and then the storm came and it got rained out....

Then the family reunion today was great I missed seeing my brother, first thing he freaking did was picked me up over his damn shoulder and runs to the pool and throws me in! But i was prepared! i had my bathing suit on! We had a long like 3 hr talk though and it helped me alot. I love my bro for being my best friend. we are so alike that we know how to comfort the other.

Now to go to watch True Blood and a movie then crash!

Long day at the docs tomorrow...

Some times I wonder

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 16:42:09 GMT

Would anyone even notice if i left. I mean am i really like a pain in the ass to be around????
I feel like with everything i have just gone through that i am a pain in the ass to my friends. The one person i want to talk to the most. i am lucky to talk to him honestly 2 times a week.

I feel like i need to disapear and try and fix me. I don't know how long it will take, I mean it might be the only thing i can do.

LOL hardly anyone talks to me. I do feel like i am that EMO person now that i always tried to help fix in others.
Even my RL friends have distanced themselves from me.....

Yeah i think its what i need to do..

The highlight of my day!!!

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 00:42:35 GMT

Ok today at lunch time Dave and I went to lunch....
We get in his truck and start to go down the hill. We see one of the sales people from Toyota walking from his truck carrying a drink and food, not paying attention that this truck is coming down the hill. Dave gets probably like 15ft from him and as the sales' guy turns his head at the right moment (i wish i had a camera!) Dave laid on the horn. The guy's jaw dropped and he jumped so high! Dave and I couldn't stop laughing our whole lunch period! The look on that guys face, i was for sure thinking that drink is going to be everywhere!
That soooo made my day.

and he didn't drop his drink

moral of this story chilren is??

look both ways when crossing an intersection!

ever wonder??

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 04:25:59 GMT

Some times I wonder if the choices that I make are the right thing??

Will have to sleep on this...

One of the best times at AC

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 20:48:14 GMT

YAY i got some of the pics from AC from Padfoot^.^

Ok I was told that Big D was BIG... But being placed on his shoulders really made me realize how big he really was!! and then of all things!!! he starts to go up and down!! so yeah that last one is priceless!!!!!

This kitty was so scared!!!

But i still love you D no worries next time i won't be so scared!

YEAH YEAH get a good laugh at the last one.. i am sooooo laughing!!!! it is so embarassing.. but i know id i do not post it Padfoot will!

why is it that music can calm the soul??

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 04:35:31 GMT

I am so proud of my mother! she is going to college!
I wish I could do it right now. I have thought about it alot. 2nd job?? go to college?? join the military?? so many things that i could do but how??

*dances to "green light" by John Legend*

I am going to have to sit down with my ex husband and havea a heart to heart about custody and what to do if i do go into the military.
What would i do?? that one is so easy! I want to be a mechanic! Its in my blood and i miss working on things and fixing them! But what to work on?? Tanks?? Trucks?? LOL Black Hawks!!

*dances to "poker face" Lady Gaga*
(this video is HOTTTTTT!!!)

But the more I think about it. The military is the best life for me and Layla. I need stability Layla does too. But wow it scares me to think that i would be leaving her.
Just alot to think about on that one.

I have to go to the police station in the AM. And try to get there before idiot does so that i can give the detective the paper work that he needs.
It sucks cause i can't scan my pics into this laptop. because i don't want to add programs to my dads computer. I am only borrowing this one until i can get a new one. i am going to talk to State Farm in the am as well and see about the plan that they gave me.

I am looking into Kick boxing classes at this one gym by my work so that my lunch breaks would be me walking over and working out! i like that idea alot.

*eerie side note*
i feel like i am being watched through my window.... don't like this... Really wish i would get a phone call.

I'm not dead!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 12 May 2006 01:43:07 GMT

i have not forgotten anyone.. but i have had a very busy life lately! lets see updates..

in no order...

ran into an ex boyfriend from a long time ago... through nicole... we have been hanging out alot lately...
will be hired on at work in about 3 weeks.. being the certicfied nurse or first response person there... cause that is what i am already.. i will be going to classes and everything....
got a new tattoo.. i will get a pic of it some time...
my now ex hubby.... this is funny.... this is really funny... ok our divorse was final on the 4th of april.... i got a phone call the 4th of may from him.... he is remarried... and they are 5 months prego. *laughs her ass off* yep right after our child support hearing in jan he got her ass prego.... so now he is going to be taking care of a total of 4 kids... all girls too... lol...
making some awesome friends at work... i love htem to death.. i am the sister that i wish i never was..lol...
have found my limit on alchol.... well nicole helped me find it one night.. even went to work with a hang over.. not a smart thing to do.

not sure what else.. i'm a blonde again...

oh oh and even got to see mud again.. that was so nice... like old times... and i drove his stang!!!!!!!!!!!! haha andy... hehehehe with the top down too..

ok i am going to sleep now long day

long awaited update.....

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 01:49:02 GMT

well let me see......

i have so much on my mind i never know were to start.

work is going good.

having serious problems with my right eye. go tommrow morning to the doc again and might be starting steriods and may need eye surgery. no contacts for a min of 2 weeks and max of 3 months or forever. ok to explain what happened. wensday night i slept with my contacts in (they are the type that you can)...but... i got an eyelash under my contact right over my pupil or cornea... can't remember which on.. and it scratched my eye... i went to the er on thursday morning and they sent me to the eye specialist. who found out because of contacts that i can wear at night.. i got an eye infection on the back of my eye.. and if i didn't get this scratch and didn't go to the doctors... i would have mostly likely have been blind in 6 months... so i have out of work thursday and friday.. i go back to work tommorw after my doc appt at 8am. that is when they will tell me what is going on and if i need surgery and all that.. it looks better.. it is still red but not as red lightly more slightly pink... so i think that is a good sign. went and bought new glasses.... i am worried that they won't look right... but i think that they will be ok...

james is late as ususal on child support... so that stresses me out

there is a co worker..ash.. we are good friends and so are our daughters.. well she has an asshole ofr a bf.. who deicded to beat her up for going out with me on saturday with our daughters.. she called me and i ran out the door and drove over there.. he wasn't there.. i grabbed her daughter and her and got in my car and took her to herex's house who is her daughters father... she is ok... her bf is such an asshole and uses her to try and use me to get things for her... i told him off the other day... he didn't like that... because i am not going to do what some man wants me to do just cause he is a lazy ass mother fucker....

but she is ok and that is what matters.. i and her ex are looking for apartments for her and i to move into...

rememebering old times

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 03:42:05 GMT

i joined myspace and it hurt when i joined. i saw old friends, who i miss dearly. they all look so happy. i miss the old times that we shared together.

Congrats!

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 03:46:53 GMT

A RL freind of mine is going to be a DADDY! his GF is 8 weeks prego!!!!! i am so happy for him.

any one know if we can put music to this?? lol i could do it to open diary... and i miss doing it.. to were people can hear the music on the page... it would be cool to have on here..

today wasn't so stressful.... work was BLAH! but home life was actualy ok. my dad actually talked to me about his job which he hasn't done in a long time. i think that one day me and him need to go and get out with out layla and without my mom and just talk. but i am afraid of my dad. i do mean afraid. so it is hard for me to get the courage to do omething this big.

i have noticed that i do take care of myself.. some of you probably know.. but for as long as i can remember i have suffered from bad acne.. i am not ashamed of it... but... i have been using meds to help treat it.. and it works. i am taking care of my body and myself, i do my hair every morning and make up. and i wear nice clothes.... so i do feel good about myself. hell i even paint my nails! its not noticable.. cause it is a pearl effect (pink) i do it twice a week since i destroy my nails at work.. but i do a full manicure on them and everything. so that should tell you that i am taking care of myself.

jame is maknig life hard for me... if i don't get any money this friday i will be 3 weeks behind... or i should say he will be 3 weeks behind in child support. i could tell the court but i am going to let him try and fix it for the month of april.. and i hope he doesn't think that the 2 weeks he gets her if this isn't caught up then i am going to let him have the 2 weeks of money back.. cause that won't happen...

wel i am talking tp page and cheats and hw so i am going to go and listen to music tpye and talk^.^

updates updates

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 02:17:06 GMT

james lied to me and is still lying to me... i have proof from his own handwritting that he lives with the girlfriend still.... he is caught up in so many lies he is a horrible liar!

layla is still alittle sick. now she has a patch on her chest for the vicks thingy.

realized alot about my friend jasen (11 yr friendship) last night, and i don't like how he treats me. so i am not going to hang out with him anymore.

james is late with child support again. he is mailing 2 weeks on childsupport out soon, but i think he will still be a week behind. so lets see what happens. i am just so happy that april 4th i will be divorced.

is going to go and chill in hte IRX and listen to music

updating on life

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 04:12:00 GMT

april 4th at 8am i will be divorced. i can't remember if i put that on there on the last post or not....

me and kirk are planning, july i will be moved to las vegas. so that makes me happy. (just got really thirsty)

truelly thanks civil for downlaoding some songs for her. you are awesome.

work was stressful but me and bobby found our ways to destress, we had rubberband fights... still have a mark on my arm but i got him on his inner thigh. so all is good. let him drive my car to.. tommorw i get to drive his and scare the crap out of him

layla is doing great. she is the little momma at home with 5 babies.... yeah not kidding she walks them all in her little stroller.....

had a civil convo with james tonight the first in a long time.

well i am going to run downstairs and get a drink and hten i am heading to bed... loves and hugs

fun fun and more fun

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 02:48:59 GMT

i wish i didn't have to work tommorw so i can play with this thing. it is really fun. i just need to try and save the pics and music from my computer to this one or something. its just alittle frustrating when the dvd writter doesn't want to work right so i am proably going to have to put everything on my memory sticks and doing that way.... ah well.

things are really going good in life, i'm happy

new computer

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 19:51:15 GMT

yep writting on the lap top, with broadband internet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can you believe it the kitty is high speed again!!!!

oh boy

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 03:45:23 GMT

can you believe that is on my bed right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yep not kidding been fiddling with it the past hour or so and going to be moving all my files to it tommorw. it will be replacing this hunk of junk and i will be getting wireless dsl!!!!!!!!!!! oh yeah baby momma is back in action!

http://www.bestbuy.com/site/olspage.jsp?id=cat13506&type=page&skuId=7628695&productId=1130986343160&defurl=false&h=387

what a waste of $20

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 03:10:49 GMT

i tell ya.. twice i went and got my nails painted both times i screwed them up right after i got home.. the last time was last night. went and got them painted green for st patty's day... and screwed them up when i got in the car.... so i got home and took the polish off.. tonight took layla to walmart and got a manicure set and a really pretty clear glaze pink color and they look 10 times better then when they did it. even bought layla a really pretty clear sparkly color, and painted her nails. i am turning her into a girlie girl.. also got her a cute little ring for her right hand ring finger. even has a little diamond in it. and a necklace that has a rocking horse charm on it. she loves both of them. but i am watching the ring like a hawk. lol.

but good note.. bud didn't get the job. well he did but not for a few more weeks or so.. so we still got our bar fridays lol. yeah i am the hot chick.. even the new lesbian girl is hitting on me hehehehe. i don't see it but oh well. i am so hungry. man

divorce papers are in the mail from my lawyer to james to be finalized. and then we are done^.^hehe so happy about that.

trying to get layla to sleep at the moment and its not working....

i am sorry to any of my friends that fell abandoned or neglected, i am sorry. it has just been a hard time for me and i need to take a break. i am starting to come around alittle more. i love you all.

i am listening to jazz.. or soft jazz oh my god.... but this guy is so awesome i like his voice

updates..

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 03:29:24 GMT

getting pissed at a RL friend that won't leave me alone. he calls me every day like 5 times and then as soon as i get online he is the first to im me. he just bugs the shit out of me some times... i think he is trying to get with me.. and or think that i am a "friends with benifits type of friend" and sorry but i'm not. i noticed that the other month when i went to hang out over his house and watch movies and he tried to make a move and i was like oh no i don't think so... try again and i am going to leave.

other then that... bud got his job at fedex and his last day was yesturday. so i miss him, yeah i haven't known him long but we went to the bar on friday and just hung out had a few beers and talked. and god he is an awesome friend every friday we are going to go to the bar. even if he is not working with me anymore. i actually go to school with his GF. so that was a shocker. i think to both of us. but we both helped eachother out with our talk.

i have come to something and told bud this too. i feel that everyone that i met in life was put in my life for a reason, bud was put in my life because he helped me realize alot about true love, hearing him talk about his GF, made me realize that i am trully inlove with kirk, it is so cute.

have you ever had a job and there was a hot chick there???? like for some reason there is always a hot chick (atleast one) at any job you were at??? >.> yeah well... i have been labeled that chick at work. >.> and i am getting hit on. even by my friends... geeze its funny too. i don't think i am at all, all i did was do alittle makeup and wear my hair done and thats it...

hardly been on the internet... i mean i went o BF and had like well over 150 new posts to look at... so i was like wow, didn't even know there was an upgrade..

ok going to sleep now.. pissed oof the RL friend...

ponders

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 02:40:09 GMT

there is so much going on in my life that i actually don't know where it is going or what i am doing anymore.

i mean tommorw i will be signing my divorce papers and will be divorced by the end of the month. and then tommorw is my 4 year ann with james. acutally 5 if you count dating as well. so that will be a chapter closed in my life.

then again today at work i got hit on, this time by bud again and ty, but not only them but by the guys that were fixing the bay doors for the trailers. ty told me that everytime i walked pasted they would ask about me and tell him that i was hot. yeah i wore makeup and my hair down again but i am not pretty.

i talked to debbie and that felt good i got some stuff off my chest with her and i miss her so much. then my friend of we can't believe 9 years. chris he called me tonight and wants to get together me him his wife layla and their brand new baby girls!!! yep twins 1 month old. so i am going to go over there friday. i used to go line dancing with him.

but god i don't know what is going on with my mind lately, i talked to runt about it because i needed to vent to some one about it, but bud has been on my mind way to much, but i drew the line with the pycho girlfriend anyway.. but seriously i don't know if its my hormones or what but i couldn't stop looking at him. yes he is really good looking but the thing that i kept telling myself is that i love kirk and i am happy with kirk, but its like eye candy that i just hate...
anyone ever been there???

onto me and kirk, we really are doing great, i mean we are talking about so much stuff that will change my life laylas and his. and damnit i am happy, i just really really miss kirk and wish he was here

work work work and more work

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 01:32:33 GMT

great news!!!!

today.... i wore make up and didn't really get dressed up wore a nice pink long sleeve shirt with a white tank top under neath and blue jeans.... had my hair down like in the pics... and got hit on twice!!! once by bud who is a cute guy probably in his late 20's early 30's. hes a cop from FL. and also from ty. ty loves my eyes and he was so enchanted as he says by how my eyes looked with make up on... it was so cute. so self esteem boost 10%

then petra... lord that woman bugs the shit out of me she hates that i do what the bosses tell me and that i do my job sooooo much better then her and she has been there for 9 years. we got into it.. and before she can go and tell on me (shes did that before) i went and told me her... and i felt good about it too.... i wonder how that is going to go in the morning.... she is a drink i mean it too.... she smells like it every day...

but ok enough of that i am feeling good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 02:51:23 GMT

we gots pictures... oh boy!!!

just how to put them on here>.<

wow that was easy too... i hope you enjoy.. mommy is 23 and layla is 2 years and 5 months old!!!

good news and great news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 02:14:45 GMT

oh my god hell is freezing over i got AWESOME news!!!

He signed the papers today at 3pm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can't believe it. he finally did it. *throws off the weights from her back* i feel like i could fly.... i feel so much better. now just to get the court date....

i can't wait to tell kirk!

onto more good news.... today at work. i fixed the printer when some one screwed it up.... my boss told me that i work great here and everyone enjoys me (the supervisors) and i learn quickly i just need to work on my attendance (cause of the divorce...) and then while talking to my boss harold came over and told saharr that i fixed the printer and she got even more proud of me after that.

i am just soooo happy right now!!!!!!!!!

the things 2yr old says

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 02:04:54 GMT

today.... me and layla were on our way home from pep boys (bought stuff for the car) and she wanted the m & m's and this was our convo

layla: m and g's peeeeze (saying how she says it. and yes they are m and g's to her)
me: not right now layla
layla: but mommy m and g's peeeeze
me: layla not while mommy is driving
layla: pullover peeeeze

me and kirk both started to laugh. he called and told his mom about it too it was so funny but cute.

ok lets see... sold my washer and dryer yesturday to my friend debbie's room mate. so that was awesome they will be getting them on saturday and i even have the money already.. or i should say what is left of it.

i went and got licence plate frames done. (andy this is for you) it is crome and says on the top "WWW.BIGFURS.COM" and the bottom line "CATS RULE DOGS DROOL" heheheheheheand i got one for the front and back licence plates. then went and also got vinyl lettering for me and layla laylas will go on the back passenger windows on both sides that says "LAYLA" in silver. and then i also got "LILLIE" in silver and i am putting that on my windshield at the bottom. then... yeah not done... i have ordered the window rain shield things for all the windows... also the la bra for the front of the car. i got floor mats for the back seats that are the cheshier cat (since one of his colors matched the car and it says "we're all mad here" a new steering wheel cover that is AWESOME!! microsuade grey to go with the car... it is sooo soft and squishy. all that is left is to wash the outside of the car and detail the inside, i already vacuumed it. oh and i got oragnizers for it too.. i got one for the trunk.. hehe that one is for work it has all different types of snacks in it (not kidding) i have ramen soup and a bowl on one side, breakfast bars in another, different types of chocolate candys in another and some sort of debbie cakes in teh last spot of and chips and dip.... lol... then on the back of the passenger seat is an oragnizer and layla has one too that goes under her seat and then a trask bag thing that is hooked against the middle console.

wow long post!!

james called me on friday and told me again that he will be signing the papers on monday... i don't believe him so i will be over nighting the paper work to my lawyer anyway. he also told me that he might have totaled the car..... i think he did it on purpose he t boned a lady.. and i know that we have gap insurance on the alero. so what ever the insurance doesn't pay then the gap one will finish and pay off the loan. so that is why i think he did it on purpose so that he could get rid of the car and get a cheap car for himself.

me and kirk have been talking about our future together....and we think that we are ready for the big step. we are trying to plan everything out for it, since it is so untraditational how we are going to do it all but hey thats us right? we are shooting for july for me and layla to be moved into the house, but that goes with how the divorce goes and when that is going to be final. so we are crossing our fingers on it.

ok done writting.. can't beleive a long post and it was almost all good too.

weird mood

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 02:53:08 GMT

i don't know what is going on with me lately. i just wish i could feel better and happier but strangely i can't, its this house and my parents and james i guess..
he called and told me tonight that again on monday he will be signing the papers. i don't believe him so i am still sending my lawyer the paper work. anyway.
my friend opie ( high school friend) is pissing me off. he won't leave me alone. he took me out after my class last night for dinner, all he could do the whole time was bitch about his job and his food... which was really good i had a bite of it. it was one of those convos that was "me me me me me me me" all i did was eat and nod. i'm not kidding. then at work. i screwed up an order that was going to puerto rico. but i fixed it but still... the boss got upset at me. i have only done these orders on the computer a few times and this one was different from the others. a good thing was i got layla to sleep at alittle after 9pm without watching a movie in bed!!!! mommy is doing good....
my parents are at a funeral, a cousin of ours lucky died on monday from heart problems, he was younger then my dad. he taught me how to ride horses on my uncles farm and was the one that bought me my first horse. i couldn't go to the funeral cause if i left early one more time they would let me go.... so i am stressing out about that as well. i got my bills paid thankyfully and is now looking for apartments. i don't know how good that will do.but i will atleast try right??

i don't know what is going to make me happy anymore... i have changed my looks to pick up my self esitim.. which it worked some... the guys at work love the hair cut and color (the ones that are my friends i mean) bought a lot of new clothes and shoes, for me and layla so we look good.. i am down to a size 4 in jeans... its been since before my marriage and i think 11th grade or maybe even 10th since i was in that size... but if i look in the mirror i don't see a skinny person...
the thing i hate the most about myself is that i just can't be happy.. be hsppy with layla, with kirk. the friends that i do have.. in myself.. i jsut can't be happy...

i just wish i could be.

realized something tonight

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 00:55:18 GMT

in myself. today i turned into my father. i yelled at layla and almost smacked her. i wanted to scream at him for treating me the way he does. i am not going to turn into my father. i have been looking at my budget to see what i can afford for apartments. i need out of this house and only need a 6month lease hopefully (james is starting it again)

he hasn't signed the papers cause his lawyer is giving him a bunch of bull about me being able to change the child support amount. my lawyer told me yeah you can but you are lieing to the judge and he will ask you alot of questions about why 3 weeks ago you had child care and now all the sudden you don't. so i told james that i will see him at trial. he told me he is going to bring up kirk. i said go ahead.... i have proof of holly... and what he doesn't understand is i can supena her to appear in court. since i have her address and phone number and where she works.. if he wants to play dirty so will I.

so i will be overnighting over 30 pages of stuff plus bank statements and all that fun stuff.... it is going to be fun.

but i think i got james scared when i told him i will see you in court then. and hung up.

write more later